Hello again 🙂
So the last couple of days have been tough for me. Normally I am strong enough to ignore the negativity surrounding my life but lately I’ve been unable to do this. I am 20 years old now and I’m finding it particularly difficult to cope with my MRKH this year. A couple of people I know are having babies and I know as I get older, more and more of my friends will be getting pregnant and I won’t be able to share their joy like I should be able to. Women getting pregnant never bothered me until earlier this year as I felt like I wasn’t ready yet anyway. I am not ready yet now also, but it’s the thought that I could be pregnant right now if I didn’t have MRKH. I have recently begun volunteering at a school for autistic children and have received much happiness from my experiences with the kids. One little boy loves to play by being spun around and held upside down and has the biggest smile on his face while doing so. A child’s smile just make my day and I imagine what it would be like to see my own child one day smiling up at me.
Sometimes I wish I was one of those girls who didn’t want kids so I wouldn’t have to put myself through all this pain and sadness. But this pain and sadness could only make me stronger, I just have to figure out how.
Love ForeverFaithful xox